Hey guys (tl,dr at the bottom),
some of you (especially the ones that are often active on discord) might have already noticed how my activity went down for quite some time now.
Obviously something is up and I don't feel like going into details here, but I am struggling to fix this depressive and broken person I have become since around the end of last year (I tried to hide it and make it go away by itself, but man... that didn't work).
I moved to a lot of new places and tried to get my stuff together (tried to socialize, find a job and even meditated etc.). And yet it just feels like new stuff is being thrown at me once I feel ready to move on.
I'm obviously not as tough as I thought I was IRL and I can't deny that this strongly affects my passion and therefore the creation of this game.
In case you imagine me being a zombie right now, that doesn't see the daylight 24/7:
No, that's not the case. I (try) to work out as usual, I leave the house every day and go around town applying and looking for a simple job just to have some sort of social environment.
I always tried to draw a very clear line between my passion and my private life and therefore didn't feel like sharing anything with you guys unless it was game progress related. Yet I feel so much better being able to let off some steam, while abusing this platform as some sort of blog.
I am sorry to cause all this trouble, including the silence, wait and all the whining in this post.
Please remember, I am not saying the things that hit me are super bad. Many people go through worse and would laugh at me. But I am feeling weak and need time.
Time to get back on track with... everything. I don't know how long it takes but I'm working hard on it (trust me I hate being a burden on my family and friends, one of the reasons I moved away).
Also I am not expecting anyone to keep supporting me, all I ask for is to wait for me and maybe check into my discord from time to time.
As for LaS:
There is just no way for me to stop this project/journey I started a long time ago, since it's one of the few things I attach the most awesome and fun memories with (yes, including all the sleepless nights, tears for being slow, extremely well done roasts and funny memes. Those moments prove to me I found something that matters to me).
It goes beyond any form of hobby and I am glad I found such thing. And unlike some people in my life this project doesn't desert, betray or leave me. I am just lost and try to find the right path again.
I want to be able to clearly focus on it again and therefore need to process/man-up/get strong/etc.. Whatever is required.
That's it for now and I consider being more active here and on discord, even though I have nothing in terms of game progress to talk about for now...
TL,DR: I am currently focusing on fixing my real life issues and can't work on LaS for now, sorry.